| 2nd Mother's Day |
[May. 12th, 2009|01:09 pm] |
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Sunday was Mother's Day. My second. I took my mom out for breakfast and then we went to the park for a little while. I bought tickets for a show for the two of us to go see. But it isn't until October! It's a long wait, but at least I have something to look forward to after summer ends.
I decided that after I finish these courses I have from ILC, I'm going to St. Louis in the mornings. I can't afford day care for a full day, but if I budget myself, I can afford it for half a day. At first I didn't want to cut out my spending money, but I told myself I had to get my priorities straight. And I'm pretty sure school is more important than clothes/cds/junk. I just wish I had more money some days.
I'm going in the mornings so I can take the car, and have the rest of the day to relax. I like to just get things over with first thing in the mornings. Like exercising. I'd rather do it in the morning so I don't have to worry about it later lol. I probably won't be able to sign up until the fall because I'm not even half done my health course, and they take a while to do through ILC. Which is why I'm going to St. Louis instead. But I don't mind waiting that long. That way I have all summer to play with Sidney! |
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[May. 7th, 2009|08:34 pm] |
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This week has been pretty dull to be honest.
Every morning I've been going to the park with my Grandma, Faith and Sidney. Then after lunch I study for about an hour, excercise and clean.
On Tuesday, I went to Dairy Queen with my mom after supper. We wanted to go to the playground close to my place but it all of a sudden got REALLY cold so we ended up at my apartment. She invited me over for supper the next day.
Wednesday goes as usual, except I go to get my mom's mother's day gift. When I get to my mom's for dinner, Gary starts freaking out because he doesn't want me there for dinner. He said he invited Beth and there was not enough food for me and Sidney. Instead of leaving right away my mom makes me stay so Gary storms out of the house and twenty minutes later storms back in and starts screaming at me in front of everyone while we're still sitting down eating! All three babies were there. Telling me I'm stuck up, that I take advantage of my mom, that I'm a liar and all sorts of other things. I didn't know what to do or say. Three years ago I would have told him what I thought of him, which is a lot worse than anything he can come up with about me. But I didn't. After he stormed out of the house again, Sidney and I left. We had to take the bus because we didn't have any other way home and it was too late to walk. Nick is pissed off about it, but the only thing I can think of to do is just not go over to visit for a while.
So today we went to the YMCA to go swimming (my grandma, faith, sidney and I). It was actually a lot of fun! Sidney thought she could swim on her own and kept pushing me away, so I'd let her and she'd get her face wet and cling to me and laugh. She did this often lol. After that I went straight home and cleaned my apartment, did laundry, and cooked dinner. After dinner I took Sidney to the playground by myself.
I'm pretty upset about the things Gary was saying. I mean, if he felt this way couldn't he have brought it up earlier and discussed it instead of waiting until it made him so mad that all he could do was scream at me? And I don't even know what he was talking about half the time...
Anyway, not only that has been bothering me. I feel like such a loner. I hang out with my Grandma, niece and daughter every day. My friends rarely ask me to hang out. Cassie was supposed to hang out this week, but the first time she was sick I guess, and the second time she didn't text me back? Oh well. I always feel awkward asking people to hang out. I think that they don't want to because they could be doing something better than coming over afte Sid goes to bed for a couple beers, or going to the park with us. I mean, I know I'm boring. And asking people to join my boring existence for a couple hours a week feels awkward for me to do.
For me, trying to stay positive takes so much energy, that after a while I just need some time to myself so I can pig out on ice cream, watch chick flicks and cry about how pathetic I can be. I want to do that right now!
PS - Sidney is really starting to talk! She can say, `duh`(dog, or duck), eye, `no`(nose), `air`(hair and ear), `mow`(mouth), down, mom, dada, yum, uh-oh, oh shit(not my fault, I never swear in front of her!), plus some more. She enjoys pointing out peoples facial features and saying the words. It`s cute, until she jams her finger in your eye. |
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| Another amazing weekend! |
[May. 3rd, 2009|08:27 pm] |
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I absolutely love the new Metric CD!
Saturday morning I bought some new shirts for summer. After Sidney's nap we had leftovers for dinner and then went to Riverside park. I love walking around with Nick and talking. We hadn't seen eachother pretty much all week, so it's nice to be able to spend time together. When we got back from the park it was pretty late, so we bathed Sidney and put her to bed then watched Yes, Man and had a couple beers.
Today I went grocery shopping early this morning. Then I woke up Nick and he dropped me off at my mom's to do some work. After we finished working, Sidney was still napping so Nick and I went to Orange Monkey. I got a Misfits shirt and he got two CDs. My mom cut my hair short, and we ordered pizza. Right now my mom is bathing the girls, and then Sidney and I will be going home.
I failed my math exam, so I have to study REALLY hard all week so I pass the second time. If I don't, I will be SO MAD at myself, so I can't let that happen!
I gotta go. |
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| Having Fun |
[Apr. 28th, 2009|07:49 pm] |
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I've been having a good time the past few days!
On Saturday it was SO gorgeous out! I went to a garage sale with my mom in the morning, and then to Riverside for a bit before dropping my mom off at home. After Sidney's nap Alissa and my Aunt Angie wanted to go to the park with Sid and I. Soon as we got there, we were a few feet away from the car, and it started POURING out! We all started screaming and running back to the car, it was hilarious! Sidney was freaked out and started crying, but was okay. I thought it was hailing out, but after I got in the car I realized that it wasn't hail, it was dirt! I was covered in dirt! We went to DQ and took it back to my apartment to eat. It was a nice visit. Nick stayed home with Sidney Saturday night so I could hang out with Alissa and Jenn. It was a lot of fun! We played in the rain and freaked out about how many worms there were, haha.
On Sunday I spent the whole day with Nick and Sidney. I got some work done, and we went to the park and everything. After Sidney went to bed, Nick went to the pub and I watched a movie, but I don't even remember the title of it. It was a really great day.
Yesterday I went to the mall by myself while Sidney was sleeping at my mom's house. I paid my Rogers bill and bought sunglasses. I also got a free five dollar gift card for doing a survey, which I thought was pretty cool! Then I got groceries and dropped them off at home. Spent a lot of time in my parents backyard with the babies. Finished up all the work we had to get done after the girls were sleeping.
Today I got up early to pick up Sidney and ended up going to the mall with Katie, my Grandma and Faith, and Sid. I bought the newest Metric and Tegan and Sara CDs. The only reason we went to the mall was so the girls could run around and it was raining haha. But they really enjoyed themselves! I spent most of the afternoon cleaning to my new CDs. There were FOUR spiders in here today! Ugh. But now my apartment is super clean and nice smelling, and ALL the laundry is finally done. After supper Sidney and I went for a walk and stopped at the playground for a little bit. Now I have to bath her!
After that, I'll listen to my CDs again and work on my Health course. |
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[Apr. 28th, 2009|07:48 pm] |
It was really warm out today, so we spent quite a bit of time at the park and walking around. I want to do something tomorrow, but no one is available? Beth and Tyler never do anything apart when he's not at work, so she won't do anything with me.
Nick and I have been talking a lot and things seem to be getting better. I've been a lot more demanding. All I want is more help with Sidney and for him to spend a little less time with Nathan. I live with Nick, and still he spends more time with Nathan. And truthfully, I feel like being a bitch and telling Nathan that Nick can't hang out every night because he has a family, and just because Dustin moved up North doesn't make it any different now. But Nick's been getting better. At least now he asks before he goes out instead of telling me AFTER he's gone out.
I'm pissed off about school. I want it done with! I just want my diploma, but I can't go to school full time because I can't afford a babysitter or daycare. At St. Louis it's $150 a WEEK for daycare for full-time. That is a lot for us when we already pay out so much money for bills already. I even considered moving out with just Sidney so we could go on welfare, just so I could go to school because welfare would pay for daycare. But that wouldn't be right, and it would be weird not living with Nick just so I could go to school. We wouldn't break up or anything, in my imaginery mind where I actually did that. And to make things more difficult, this year we get hardly any baby bonus because Nick made too much last year. I was getting almost $300 a month last year, this year I'll be getting close to $80. |
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| I'm getting frustrated |
[Apr. 18th, 2009|01:27 pm] |
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Mine and Nick's relationship just doesn't feel like it's working. We don't see eye to eye on anything. His new work schedule sucks, because I never see him during the week. He prefers to spend his weekends with his friends rather than Sid and I. We don't have a sex life. I feel like, we aren't even a couple. I believe that Nick just isn't ready for family life, and it's unfair to Sid and I. So, I think it would be best to break up, but I love him and want it to work. Problem is we've been trying, but it isn't happening. What am I supposed to do? It's all I think about. Should I break up with him? Yes. No. Maybe. No. Yes. Really? It's driving me insane. I get angry, then I feel sad, then I say, "Oh, forget about it, it'll get better." But when it doesn't, I get angry and then sad again. |
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| Easter, broken car and failed math exam |
[Apr. 14th, 2009|12:09 pm] |
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On Saturday my car decided that even though a lot on it was already broken, it needed to fall apart even more. Two things from underneath are now dragging lol. Nick's taking it to his dad's shop tomorrow morning to get fixed. Until then I can't drive it anywhere.
Easter was strange. I was supposed to go to my mom's house, but Gary "didn't feel like cooking" that day. So I had to beg my mom to come over here. Luckily we had everything we needed to pull off an Easter dinner in a few hours lol. It turned out pretty good even though it was just Mom, Nick, Faith, Sidney and I at dinner. My Grandma and Uncle Victor came over for a few hours, and Christina and Matt stopped in for a few minutes. Sidney and Faith had a lot of fun playing together and hunting for eggs. :)
Yesterday I finally opened up a savings account at the bank and wrote my math exam. Soon as I opened the test, I couldn't remember how to do a damn thing and I had studied a lot! I couldn't even remember how to factor! I guessed at a lot of the questions and was even given extra time, but I know for a fact that I failed. I'm glad I'll be able to rewrite the exam though.
( Do you act your own age? ) |
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| Totstime |
[Apr. 7th, 2009|12:24 pm] |
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We finally went to Totstime today after wanting to go there for weeks! lol. I was always too scared to go by myself because I'm shy, and then one week I was seriously going to go, but Sidney was sick. It was a lot of fun though. Sidney had a difficult time paying attention to the stories because she was so excited to be around other children, but loved when they played music the best. A little boy would dance with her every time they put the music on. It was so cute. And when everyone went into the next room to colour, they held hands and walked around the whole library before going to the crafts room. He's a year older than Sidney. I think we'll go again next week. Maybe Lexi or Faith will come too. |
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| Sucky weather |
[Apr. 6th, 2009|01:30 pm] |
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I've been trying to keep busy this week. My math exam is supposed to be sometime this week, and I'm just waiting for them to call me back with a date and time. I can't wait to be done with math and start my health unit. Also, after my math exam I'll start studying for my fashion exam. School always goes way too slow when I'm just waiting around to do my exams. It's a pain in the ass!
I haven't had much school work to do in a long time, so I've been trying to keep busy in other ways. On Tuesday I babysat Faith over at my mom's house. I was asked to come over and help watch her, but soon as my mom left for work Gary went upstairs to his room and didn't come down until it was time for him to pick Christina up from school and then didn't even come in when he dropped her off. But whatever, it wasn't horrible after I got Sidney to nap. I was pissed though. If I knew I was watching her by myself I would have brought her to my place. Then it was Katie's birthday dinner at the Mandarin that night. The food was tasty and I had a lot of fun.
I hung out with Cassie twice last week. The first time we went to Tim Hortons and the funniest thing happened. There was a little boy two months older than Sidney sitting close by with his mom and Grandma (I'm assuming) and he was eating timbits. And Sidney started screaming and pointing at the timbits box and I was like, "No timbits Sid, you just had half a donut." But she screamed anyway so the mom offered her one, I said thanks, and then when Sid finished she screamed again, got another timbit, said thanks, finished and screamed again! SO I was like, okay, time to go. It was embarrassing, but humuous. Sidney has such an attitude sometime. After Sid went to bed Cassie and I smoked and we drew pictures of the people on the record covers, and made pizza haha. Then on Thursday night Sidney was at my mom's so we drove and got a coffee and sat at Riverside for a while and talked.
Yesterday I took Faith and Sidney to the mall to go shopping. I swear, my day was full of bad luck from the very beginning. Sidney woke up at 6a.m. instead of her usualy time, 8:30. Then after I picked Faith up and got to the mall at 9:30, I realized the mall didn't open until 11a.m., but I couldn't get the double stroller to close to get back in the car so I decided to walk around the mall for an hour and a half. Tim Hortons opened at ten, so we got coffee and timbits, I changed their diapers, walked around until 10:30 and realized Zellers opened earlier than the rest of the mall and I could have been shopping for baby clothes in there that whole time! So we did that for a while. I bought Sidney a cute Winnie the Pooh outfit and spring jacket, a t-shirt and a Sesame street beth toy. By then the rest of the mall opened and we went to the rest of the children's stores. When we went to leave, I noticed I lost a shopping bag! I looked all over and checked the lost and found, but it was no where. I'm glad it was only a $5 t-shirt in the bag, but still a bummer. Then once we got to the car, I realized Sidney's running shoe had fallen off! And I still couldn't get the stroller closed and I was exhausted, and it was past their nap time, and their lunch time! I felt horrible for keeping them out so long. But I couldn't leave the stroller, so I called my mom and she came to the rescue. We didn't find my bag, but at least we got Sidney's shoe, and the stroller closed. I took Faith back to my place, even though my mom said it would be better to bring her back home. The girls weren't any trouble, so I didn't listen. I got them lunch and we played until Faith had to go home. A while later Alissa and Jenn invited us to Riverside park. We played on the climber, the swings, watched Diego chase geese and Sidney loved it all. After that it was dinner time. I went to bed at 10:30 last night. I was SO tired.
Yesterday I was out in a t-shirt for a while, today it's snowing. I can't wait for it to stay warm out.
I hope Beth let's me babysit when she goes to work. She doesn't seem to want to anymore. She says I can't handle two kids, but on Tuesday I handled them even if I was aggravated. And on Sunday I did my best, considering the circumstances. They were both angels, things just kept going wrong. Now she'll never trust me. I guess I can understand why. I just want to be able to keep myself occupied and make a little bit of money I can save, and feel like I'm actually doing something with my life. My mom said I can learn her bookwork and do that for money. I think I will. It'll also look good on my resume when I apply at a bank in the future lol |
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| search mystifiedvirago on LJ |
[Mar. 29th, 2009|01:49 pm] |
I found my old LJ that I didn't even remember existed, and it's the funniest thing I've ever read. I sounded so hyper and weird and annoying. But it's fucking hilarious! I don't even remember half of this stuff I'm reading!
EXAMPLE:
2/22/05 02:10 pm - *sigh*
"When I stay at home all the time, it makes me sad and easily annoyed because of not being around normal people. Well, my family isn't all too normal. I guess it is normal compared to some, but all my friend's families do not act like mine...
BETH- Ohmagosh! She is turning 17 in May and just a few weeks ago she was running around the living room screaming, " I have to shit!I have to shit!" So, kind of gross. And just last night she was like, " HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUH! OMG! I FORGOT TO BREATH!..." Plus she has the body of a frog. Not meaning that she is green and slimey, but that she has long legs and a short body! And she likes to dance... Not very attractive to watch, but quite amusing. And she whines about the most stupid things! And she was once flipping her hair around and she said, " No matter what you do to my hair it is always PERFECT!" Plus on a boring Sunday morning to pass the time she colour codes her closet and puts matching outfits together:S!?
Christina- She attacks all my friends. She growls, spits, bites, scratches, jumps, pulls hair(not just head hair...) and that is why no one likes my house. She dresses like a skank(only on weekends) and writes in her diary about having so many boyfriends and how she french kisses them(since grade 1). Well, I can't remember everything. But you know, its the little things that all add up together, and some are too embarrassing to even write...
Mom- She acts like a teeny bopper. She gets excited about silly things. And then she says the weirdest scary things. Like once my younger cousin Katie was talking and my mom said, "Shut up or I'll put this out on your forehead!" In a jokingly way of course. And she once said to Katie because Katie is a little brat who talks a lot and thinks she can have wants, my mom said to her, "I'm sitting in the front. So you can french kiss my asshole!" Which is hilarious to me, but also nastynastynasty! If you think about it.
Dad(stepdad)- It is mostly his looks. He is going bald and he is only 32. He has spaced-out teeth and a big bushy beard and stragely(sp?) hair(the hair that he has). And one time, he was buying my friends and I some alkey and Cassie was on the phone with her mom and he jumped in the front seat and yelled, " LETS GO DRINKING!" The most funniest thing ever at the time! Cassie was just glad she hung up in time before her mom heard.
Then there is the rat. Which is really a chuawawaawawawa(sp?)/ poodle. And it it very very very ugly in my opinion." |
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| I love Spring |
[Mar. 28th, 2009|12:18 pm] |
I really do love spring! It's so nice out, that I don't even have to wear a jacket right now. However, they're calling for flurries on Monday, haha. And I'm hoping I get to wear my new sandals soon, but I don't think it's THAT warm yet.
I'm feeling MUCH better these past couple days. Earlier this week I finally caught that virus everyone in the family had. I thought I'd get away with not getting it, but I was the last person to. My mom and Grandma were really helpful with Sidney because my whole body hurt so bad I didn't even want to move. So, I'm much better now and yesterday I went out with my Grandma, Beth and the three girls. We went to Salvation Army because they had a 99 cents sale. I didn't find ANYTHING but a Pooh Bear spring jacket for Lexi. I tried on a couple things, but the dress I wanted had a broken zipper and the sweater was stretched out and faded. By the time we got there, there were pretty much no good CDs, books or movies left. But that's alright. Afterwards we ate lunch in the park, and the girls got to play. Then we stopped at Giant Tiger so I could get more Easter goodies for Sidney. I bought a cheap pair of pants (which are honestly a size too small, but that's okay). THEN, we went out for dinner with my like always. But Beth was in a pissy mood and the whole dinner was so negative and no one enjoyed themselves because of her. We left like, an hour earlier than we usually do. I was pretty upset, because I look forward to going out on Fridays. Next time, she can stay home. After that we rented movies. My mom and I watched The Midnight Meat Train. It was really creepy. The guy who wrote the story also likes to paint. His paintings are really cool but scary looking.
PS - I'm definately over last weekend.
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| Feeling Crummy |
[Mar. 22nd, 2009|08:41 pm] |
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Last night Beth and I were going to go to glow in the dark miniture golf. But then for some reason we decided we wanted to go out and have a couple beers. I told her I didn't want to go to a club, I'd rather go to a bar where we can just chill. But of course we didn't do that.
Alissa came out with us too. And then because we didn't have a drive anywhere, Brad was going to come with a couple of his friends. So we went to Guelph to a little club, but at least the drinks weren't too overpriced. I had an alright time. Drank too much, which I paid for today. They even got me to dance for a little bit. I had no idea what I was doing and kept trying to get away! The one guy was a total creep on the way back. He was all touchy feely. Nothing private, but still made me uncomfortable. And then for some reason he playfully bit my neck, and I pushed him off and kept telling him that I was in a relationship and didn't want to do anything like that. But he was all like, "I'm a married man, it's just a little fun!" And he kept hitting on Beth too. I'm not used to attention like that, and I was really drunk, so I just kept pushing his hands off my leg, and what not and then act like normal. It's not like I could run away because we were in a van driving home. It was totally creepy and I don't like any sort of attention like that. I've always been uncomfortable around guys, and to be truthful, some days I feel really uncomfortable even around Nick! So today I feel all violated and want to cry. I never ever want to go out drinking again! And then Beth made this big deal out of it to Tyler, and I didn't even get a chance to tell Nick and he called me freaking out saying he was going to kill this guy. And I don't want to talk about it, because I feel gross. I'm sure to most people, this might seem not so upsetting, but I hate it. I don't want to talk about it with Nick. I just want to forget it.
Today I walked to my mom's because Nick needed the car to go to work. It was kind of chilly, but the sun was super warm. I stopped at Timmies to get a sandwich and a coffe. I need to go grocery shopping tomorrow. In front of me was this couple with a daughter a little older than Sidney. They had a harness on her (similar to the one I have for Sidney so she doesn't run away), but they were practically dragging her and she was whining while the parents were argueing REALLY loudly about bills. Whenever they passed a bench, of steps, the little girl would cling to it and try to sit down and then the mom would yank her with the harness and yell at her! "Why are you acting up?! LETS GO! LETS GO! You aren't going for a walk next time! BLAH BLAH!" And this continued for a while. They had a Giant Tiger bag, so I knew they'd been walking a few blocks now, so it's no wonder a little girl that small would want a break! Even the mom was complaining she just wanted to get to Timmies and sit down. I don't understand how someone could be so cruel. All they would have to do is carry her the rest of the way. I then picked up my speed and walked ahead of them. Two blocks away I could still here her yelling at the kid and the kid crying. I was livid.
My mom and I took the girls to Riverside park for a couple hours. It was pretty cool, but fun. I love being outside. After playing on the swings and slide, we put them in strollers and walked around the river to look at ducks and geese. Sidney adores animals. Faith doesn't seem too interested yet. When we got back I felt nauseous, so I watched this movie called I Always Loved You, or something, about two sisters being reunited after the older one gets out of jail after 15 years for killing her own son. It was sad. |
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| Seems like Forever. |
[Mar. 20th, 2009|10:49 am] |
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Seems like forever since I've been online. I couldn't figure out how to open Internet Explorer, and then Nick told me I was clicking the wrong one haha.
I haven't really been doing much lately. Sidney is just getting over the flu, so mostly I've just been doing a lot of laundry and cleaning in general, and studying for my upcoming math exam. After my math exam I have a fashion exam. Then, I can start my Health course. So, at least I've been finally getting some credits after a while of being stuck.
Cassie came over the other day. She played with Sidney and we watched a bit of Peter Pan until Sidney went to bed. Then we had a couple beers, listened to records and we talked and talked. I enjoy hanging out with people when it's calm and not crazy. I really don't like parties or anything, well sometimes they're okay.
It's been really nice out lately, and I am SO excited for spring/summer! I finally bought a nice pair of sandals and I've been looking for a couple pairs of shorts. I haven't worn shorts in years. That means I'll probably have to start shaving my legs haha. I epilate them, but they're never totally smooth. I hope this summer I loose another 25 lbs. I've been trying really hard to loose weight these past couple weeks and managed to knock off 3 lbs. It seems like I have to cut myself off junk food completely and barely eat anything and excercise twice a day just to loose a little weight. But I guess I did this to myself when I gave into every little pregnancy craving. Didn't really help that I quit smoking because everyone knows that most people gain weight when they quit. I'm hoping within the next year I'll develope a thyroid problem like my sister Beth. She's already back into a size five since having Lexi, and she doesn't even have to try. It snowed last night, so that was dissapointing, but I'm sure it'll be nice again soon!
Nick and I have bought some new furniture recently. Our apartment is really starting to look quite nice. We got a book shelf, and a small table with two chairs which we're using as a desk. Yesterday I ordered an area rug for Sidney's bedroom. In the fall, we'll be buying her a "big girl" bed. I've already picked it out lol, and so when I bought her new curtains, I got the rod to match lol. Her room is going to be all pink, green and white. I'm also planning on getting her a toy box of somesort instead of the laundry basket where her toys are in right now. |
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| Shopppping fun |
[Mar. 8th, 2009|09:17 pm] |
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On Wednesday I went to see Friday the 13th with Alissa and Jenn. When they called at 4, I was in my pjs and wasn't sure if I wanted to go, but I'm glad I did. I have to make myself go out and do things, but it's always worth it. The movie was actually pretty humorous!
On Friday Beth amd I went to the mall with our babies. I found a really nice plaid shirt at Smart Set which actually looks good on me! And then I bought new sandals at Aldo. I'm not used to spending a lot of money on myself, but I had seen these two things before and really wanted them so Nick gave me the money to get them. After we went to the mall I went back to my mom's place. We got take out from the Fifties this week, and picked up movies from Blockbuster. We watched the remake of Wizard of Gore. It was pretty confusing but eventually I figured it out. I really should watch the original.
Then on Saturday I went out shopping again with Beth, my mom and the babies. We went to the Smart Set outlet, Old Navy and Wal-Mart. I got Sidney a bathing suit and an outfit for summer and myself a new black zip-up hoodie. I also got Sidney a pink poodle harness, finally, for when we go out. I watched Australia by myself after I put Sidney to bed. It was also a pretty good movie.
Today I didn't even bother getting dressed. I just changed into track pants and a tshirt. My hair was crazy looking and I couldn't get it flat! So I stayed home all day and cleaned my apartment. It was getting pretty dirty. There is a spider in my bathroom, and I can't get it because it's on the ceiling. I HATE spiders and I want it gone! Other than that, I took Sidney for a wagon ride around the block. She didn't want to go inside because the neighbors cat was wondering around outback and I had to carry her in kicking and screaming because her hands were like icicles. Tomorrow we start potty training. Before it was getting her used to the potty seat, but now we have to get her to go in the potty. lol. I hope it goes smoothly. I want her out of diapers before she's two. |
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[Feb. 26th, 2009|10:49 pm] |
So, on Family Day my Mom, Faith, Sidney and I did go to Wings of Paradise and the girls loved it. It was super crowded and super humid, so we didn't stay too long. The girls were getting pretty grumpy anyway. I love watching Sidney experience things. She loves watching birds so the whole time she was squeeling and pointing in a million directions!
Friday I turned 19. It was a strange day. I woke up and cleaned the apartment. When Nick got home he gave my present right away, which is a record player that you can hook up to a computer! Then I made pizza for all of us for lunch. Sidney smeared pizza sauce all over my sleeve and I was like, "Oh great, now I have to change my clothes!" and Nick was like, "So, you were gonna change anyway later." And I said, "Uh.. No I wasn't?" And then Nick said, "You were going to wear THAT out to dinner on your 19th birthday? You're dressed like a ninety year old lady." And I don't know why, but that really upset me so I threw some clothes around, put my sweatpants on and went for a walk. I cried for like, two hours just thinking about all the things I hated about myself. Eventually I felt better and got dressed to go out. But Nick wouldn't wake up to go to dinner with my family! I mean, he's on a totally opposite schedule as the rest of the world because of work, but it was my birthday dinner! I told him it was okay and left without him. I waited an hour for a table at Eastside's, and everyone was getting anxious so my Aunt called a different restaurant and we all went there. It was disappointing but I had a great time anyway. Everyone gave me really great gifts. A super cool purse and pair of shoes from my mom, a gift set from the Body Shop from Beth and Tyler, and a gift card for Le Chateau (which I've already spent!) from my Aunt and Uncle. And then my Uncle Bob even paid for my dinner :). I put Sidney to bed at my mom's before I went home.
We finished dinner so late that the liqour stores weren't open and I was so upset, because nothing seemed to be going right but we got a number from a friend and had a 40 of vodka delivered, my present from Cassie lol. I got stupid drunk with Cassie and Nick invited Nathan, who invited Dustin, who invited Sheena. I wanted it to be just Cassie and me, but I wanted Nick there too, so Nathan being there would have been cool I guess. SO I made a fool of myself. At apparently 6a.m. I finally went to bed. I woke up at 11a.m. in vomit, took a bath, fell asleep on the couch until 2p.m. I didn't want to move because of how awful I felt, but I wanted to see Sidney so Nick dropped me off at my mom's house because I was in no shape to drive.
Today Nick and I went out and bought a laptop and a printer! I've been wanting one forever! And later, I made Christina go to Home Depot with me and I got a book shelf, and a curtain for Sidney's room because Nick broke her blinds lol!
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| My Long Weekend |
[Feb. 16th, 2009|12:54 pm] |
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Friday I went out with my mom, Faith and Sidney. After the Fifties we went shopping. I found this REALLY cool James Dean mirror that hangs on the door for $15! Then I bought a clear, rectangular vase and lavender to go in it, which looks and SMELLS great. I went home after that and watched a movie called Love and Other Disasters.
Saturday was kind of boring for Valentine's Day. My mom called around noon, but I didn't want to spend Valentine's Day with my mom, so I ignored her call like the bad daughter I am... Instead I played with Sidney all morning in her bedroom and listened to songs on my MP3 through her CD player. Then I cleaned my apartment and lit some vanilla candles in every room. When Nick got home we all exchanged gifts. I gave Nick his cookies and card and Sid gave him the card she got for him. Then we gave Sidney her fish which she named Cici. He's on her dresser, and I put a stool by it so she can look at him whenever she wants without being able to touch him haha. And I got the most perfect gift ever. When I gave Nick his watch for our Anniversary I said that I wanted one exactly the same so we could match lol. And so he bought me a watch very similar, but for women. And it's so pretty. I love it. Later we all watched Madagascar 2.
Yesterday was a weeeeird day. I woke up feeling great! Took Sidney for a walk to Riverside Park, which was nice. Until she got grumpy and started crying and there was no way I could get home quickly because it's like a half hour walk away. No one could come pick us up either so I walked as fast as I could home. Then I was EXHAUSTED for some reason, and Sidney wouldn't go for a nap. I ended up putting my pj's on and was feeling miserable. AND then I found out my watch got scratched! So I started crying and crying. Finally Sidney went to sleep around 3p.m. which is when she usually gets up from a nap. So I got my comforter and cuddled up on the couch and watched 5 episodes of the second season of Six Feet Under. I called my mom because I was too miserable to play and care for Sid and I felt bad, so she got Sidney around 7. Nick got home half hour after that and told me to get ready to go out for dinner. Which was really great and I had a lovely evening. I don't even know why I felt so miserable all of a sudden.
And today I woke up, got dressed and walked over here as fast as I could! I wanted to go to Wings of Paradise, but everyone is napping now, including my mom. And Nick is working AGAIN! ugh. |
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| February |
[Feb. 10th, 2009|12:46 pm] |
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February is always going to be a pretty busy month for me. This year it sucks. Nick and all of the company he works for got some pretty awful news so I'm a little freaked out. I haven't been up to too much.
Nick and I didn't do anything special for our anniversary. I bought him a watch and made vegan spiced banana pancakes. On Monday, for family day, we're going to the butterfly conservatory. We were supposed to on Valentine's day but he has to work. I'm baking vegan gingerbread cookies for Nick. And I bought Sidney a red beta fish. I also got Nick a card from me and one from Sid. It's super cute. It says, "The only thing better than having your as my valentine today is having you as my daddy everyday." And then Sidney got princess valentine cards which we're going to be handing out this week. I've decided to not go out to a bar or club for my 19th birthday since I don't much care for drinking anyway. Instead I'm just inviting my family and a couple friends to have dinner with us at Eastside's. My Grandpa sent a birthday card and money.
I should be doing my math work right now. This unit is much easier than the first and second, but I don't have a graphing calculator so there are a couple questions I can't answer. It's stupid for them to give you questions needing one because not everyone can go out and purchase a $200 calculator. Why would I spend that much money on a stupid calculator anyway? Maybe I should ask Mrs. Brennon at my old high school if I can go and work in her office and use one of their's. lol. I bet she'd let me, but I don't feel like it.
Sidney's been sick for quite some time now, so I'm taking her to the doctor's this afternoon. Faith ended up needing medicine, so it's the best thing to do. I just hope Sidney doesn't need any medicine though. It's too sad to have to do that. She's such a good girl. Sidney has peepee'd in her potty twice now! I'm going to get her a sticker book, and everytime she does good things she can get a sticker. My mom used to do that for us. I still have my stickers lol. And people are always giving Sidney stickers when we go out. Like, the doctor, and people who work in stores. I thought it was weird at first. But it's cute. After dinner my Aunt Angie is coming to visit. She hasn't been able to come over yet because she had an exam at work and then she got sick. Not many people visit me. I like having visitors because I get bored easily.
Which is why I'm going to look for a parttime job. It doesn't matter what time. Evenings, or days. If it's days, I can pay my Grandma to watch Sid. If it's evenings, I can pay my mom to watch her. I'd prefer evenings though because of Nick's work schedule. That way I'd still be able to spend time with him in the morning/early afternoon. I have it all figured out. Now I just need to get the job. |
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| Oh Happy Day |
[Jan. 12th, 2009|08:06 pm] |
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Today I felt really accomplished. I went to the bank to deposit money and switch my address. Then I went and got my address changed on my liscence, followed by a trip to Dollarama where I bought some ribbon for a project I'm working on for Sidney's bedroom. After that I dropped off some stuff at Value Village and now I'm at my mom's house uploading pictures. Afterwards, on the way home I have to stop at Short Stop to mail something to the tax centre telling that I have moved also.
Tomorrow, a doctor's appointment at 11a.m. for Sidney. Then I want to do some more address changing. I can't wait until I start getting my mail at my own place!
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[Jan. 11th, 2009|08:43 pm] |
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Now that Cassie lives down the street I feel tempted to call her a lot to hang out. I feel bad because I feel so intrusive. Anyway, Wednesday we went to Timmies for a bit. It was nice to be able to sit down in Tim Hortons with someone again because I love it there. It's always full of older people hanging out, I like being the youngest one there. Then Alissa and Kris asked me to go to Alissa's house to drink.
I was really excited to because I know it would be my only chance to catch Kris before he went back to PEI. We got so wasted and ran out of booze. But it was seriously a lot fun and I made a fool out of myself pretending I could dance. We danced, talked, went on a gay chatroom, and Kris made us hotdogs and pasta at 6 in the morning. I stayed up until 6:30a.m and woke up at 10:30a.m. surprisingly not hungover and very anxious to go home and clean. Cleaning is like, my new thing. I do it all the time.
Last night Cassie came over and we watched Girl Interupted. It was a really good movie, even though I hate Angelina Jolie. I'm glad she played the psycho bitch, so I could hate her haha. It was a sad, but inspiring movie. I always feel weird having people over because I'm not fun anymore and I feel like if I don't entertain them good enough no one will want to come over and I'll be a bigger loner than I already am. So, when Cassie was over I didn't know how to make it any more fun, but I love watching movies.
Then I wanted to go to the mall today so I invited Cassie and surprisingly she came lol. I wanted to get these cute square shelves and eventually found them in black after looking in three stores. And I love them. I forgot the stroller, so of course I had a bitch of a time carrying Sidney, my purse, the diaper bag, her jacket and my shelves. Eventually Cassie offered to help carry something and it saved my life. We got a snack at the food court and then at Green Earth I found the coolest sketch book I'm going to use as a visual journal. The front and back cover is like this hard cardboard so I am going to make collages all over it. Yayyyy.
Oh yeah, we bought faux leather curtains for the living room finally and I am so happpyyy about that. I always felt like I was on display at night time. AND now I am going to do my collage and watch Sex and the City the movviieee.
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